Adios black funk

I know I've not written back as fast as I had hoped but I've in a bit of a funk and feeling far too sorry for myself over the last week, and not writing as much as I should.

In fact, I was half way through a email labelled "Worst birthday ever", which goes to show how down and messed up I was a couple of days ago, but thankfully I'm out the other side and happier than ever.

Some people argue that Time is the greatest healer, and while I am not denying its potential for me sunshine, freedom and a couple of good films at the cinema was a much speedier way to recovery.

Heading down to my local cinema in the glorious sunshine, strolling down previously undiscovered { by me so far } tracks around grassy banks, overlooked by an old engineers museum and then reaching an almost brand new and still refreshingly semi-deserted cinema complex was a very calming and chilling experience.

Being able to watch two in a row, with barely enough time in between flicks to nip outside and grab a ice-cream and Fanta from the neighbouring shopping mall { far cheaper and made me feel a rebel for not paying the extorting cinema prices } was fantastic.

Complemented by the fact that both films were clever, well written and also with a definite feel good ending, I came out feeling that A) justice can sometimes be found - albeit at the end of a long snipers rifle, ha ha; B) that I need to get myself a motorcycle; and C) that being single isn't always a bad thing { no nagging or messy divorce settlements and one less person to worry about getting kidnapped while attempting to right a few personal wrongs !!! }.

The walk back was equally clear of traffic or passers by, and the route I took back also let me gaze upon the nearby field near my house where I could see a circus in the background, while a group of kids played soccer using their jumpers for goalposts.

And thus it was that despite walking back to an empty house { lodger away }, with a nasty cough { that's hung around for a month } after a less than awe inspiring birthday karaoke party the night before { the family was all away at a health spa weekend }, with the news an old enemy is just landed a higher salary job in my own company { the total b*tch } and having recently semi-amicably split from my newly met sexy asian girlfriend { possibly my shortest ever relationship so far } I still managed to find that extra spring in my step and feeling only a handful of loose change less than a million bucks.

In fact, I wasn't even going to bother trying to quantify why I feel I have had a bad run of luck recently, but then that would only be giving half a story ... so not that I care any more, but just out of completeness I had to leave them in.

Don't ask me why, I still don't know, but then when I feel this amazingly good when I almost have a case for singing the blues I'm not going to knock it or waste time asking questions, I'm just gonna get out there and keep on swinging.

There is no justice !!!

I must take back almost all of what I said in my last entry.

 

There is no justice in the world and I want to move to a new universe.

 

Despite knowing ALL the in's and out's of what went on with me and miss X, my boss has decided to still offer her the position in our relatively small and close knit company.

 

This means, that I will be forced to cross swords on a daily basis with someone whom I had to threaten with legal action and ended up having a nighttime visit from her semi psychotic brother to 'sort things out' once and for all.

 

The last time that I had any dealing with her I said that I would not attempt to make any form of  communication to her from that moment on, and now I will be forced to email or call her several times a week at least, plus see the 'fugly' as she comes in and deals with the rest of the management department who sit all around me in our open planned office environment.

 

Someone who I shared a confidence with, and related my inner most feelings about those around me, INCLUDING those who I work with, will now be rubbing shoulder with said same people, and with her knife still sharp and looking for blood, I'm seriously contemplating having my jacket modified to include a solid metal plate sewn into its backing.

 

And my boss ... well she said that she will keep an eye on her, that as long as I keep myself to myself she is confident that I can't fall foul of any legal shenanigans ( like sexual harassment brought against me ) and that she didn't think I seemed that upset or uncomfortable when I found out that she was applying for the position here in my company.

 

This is the reward I get for not insisting that she be denied the position, as in "its either her or me" kind of outright confrontation. No wonder the bad guys in the movies get all the best parts, the best scripts and the best chicks ... art mimics real life.

 

It's at times like these when I think that if there is a god, and if he/she/it does take an active role in our mortal lives, then he/she/it has got one hell of a sick and twisted sense of black humour.

 

Thus today's lesson is ... don't ever give the b*tch*s / b*rst*rds a fare break, cos they will only beat you with it and for ever after make your life a living misery.

Reap what you sow

As anyone can tell you, I have never been a big one on organised religions, but I do have a very firm sense of what is right and wrong, and every now and again a line or two of my old Sunday School teaching will come back to me.

Today, the truest meaning of the what the Roman statesman, philosopher, and orator, Marcus T. Cicero meant when he said, "As you have sown so shall you reap." { 50 years later a very similar quote is used in - Galatians 6:7 } popped up in my very own little life.

It also showed that it really is a very small world.

On a number of occasions in this blog I have hinted that a woman, whom I know from working in London, has caused me considerable amounts of unnecessary financial grief, stress and worry.

This person is one of the main reasons why I have had to shelf my dream home idea for a few years, and also why I have had to remortgage my house and thus lose most of the equity in doing so to clear debts that were in my name but were chiefly in her best interest. And all this from someone who was suppose to be a close and trusted friend.

Well today she learned the hard way the real meaning behind the a-fore mentioned quote and it was just beautiful to behold.

It all began because she herself has caused so much grief at her current job that she has found herself facing the choice of either jumping early or being pushed out of her job, and of course being a single young female with two mortgages to pay she cannot really afford to lose the job without finding a replacement.

So, once she gave in her notice she began to look around for new vacancies where she can work, and at one of these vacancies she attended two interviews and then verbally accepted the position, which as it turns out was where she made her third big mistake ( the first being what she did to me and the second by having an almost affair with her engaged boss ).

Because she is such a self-absorbed person in all the years of fake friendship on her part, she never once knew nor cared where I worked, and this has led to her downfall as this position that she accepted was in my very own company, working right next door to me.

However ... that was before my boss became aware of her last name. As soon as my boss saw that she was from my home town and read her first name she remembered all that I have told her in confidence about my life, and instantly called me up to ask if I knew this person, and when I did that was pretty much curtains for her potential employment with us.

I did not go out to try and stop her from working with us, but my boss is very protective over me, and knowing how much grief and trouble this person has happily caused me, my boss has pretty much black balled her from the interview stakes.

Thus, she must now again go back to square one, with even less time than ever before her current employment runs out, and go through the hassle of attending several interviews in the hope of impressing and getting a job elsewhere.

AND ALL BECAUSE she was nasty to me, stole from me, lied to me and then refused to return what was rightfully mine until I pressed to take legal action against her.

Q.E.D. People who are self-absorbed, who turn their back on true friends and who do their best to shit on good people from a great height will eventually find themselves out of favour, with no one to turn to and refused what they need the most.

As for me ... I still bear her no ill will, have just started dating a girl from China, have managed to sort out all my finances so I am no longer spending out more than I am earning, and am looking forward to a karaoke party with my friends from work to celebrate my 31st birthday. Rock on ..........

And for the record, IF I had wanted to be really nasty { and risk bringing some serious bad karma onto myself }, I would have kept quiet, waited until her first day of work AND THEN told my boss who it was, at which point she would then have ensured that the mega slag-bag-witch-bitch-from-hell ( as I have on occasions referred to of my ex friend. when I was feeling extra angry of frustrated ) didn't last out her new-employee probation period.